Thank you for your posts. Although i dont post often i try and read posts everyday as they help me know that im not alone and i am here with others who understand the illness. That is hard to admit…i have an addiction/illnesses. .i not ashamed to admit it. I just never thought “”I” would be one with the issue. My debt i am working off. I started on 9/25/17 with 4 payday loans and a $1500.00 loan from a friend and i borrowed $3000.00 on a vehicle that i paid off . in September i lost about $25000.00 before that loss i was out of debt completely. So the payday loans were a cost of about $1000.00 apieace. To date i have paid off 2 payday loans owe $700.00 on one and $300.00 on the other .paid $1000.00 to friend and $400.00 on vehicle. The car i have a 18 month loan on. The others i hope to get paid off before December. Time will tell if that will happen by then but i hope so as i would like to have money for xmas. I must tell you your post does help and yet i dont feel like i have offerred words of inspiration i have a sincere hope for ever person going thru this illness and i know i still have urges some moments i just i want to give in to them i know it will cause more damage then good so i turn here or my GA meeting every Thursday or individual therapy every Monday. Then wearing myself out working but no pain no gain. I have really felt the loss like no other time as i am paying back on my own without help but i see light now instead complete darkness. I am blessed as you are as well we know what we are facing now we just have to decide we can hide and fight with all ourself because we are worth fighting for and so are our family and friends. We all know we cant pick our family but friends should support even though they might not understand this illness as many of us find it embarrassing to share our defeat i am not ashamed to tell my friends but you must know i know alot of people but only have 5 friends who all encourage me. I accept my past i working on my future. Sorry for my ranting and good luck to you and thank you for taking time to comment.
