Dear (((Liz)))! Thanks for your supportive kind post. Vera sent me an email and we talked about this anxiety about someone dying as she said she feels the same way. I have come to the conclusion that I am worried about my recovery if someone I love dies. When my brother died, my gambling spiralled even more out of control. I never want to go back to how emotionally ill I was when I was gambling totally out of control. I don’t deal with death well! That’s one of the big reasons why I find how you handled your husband dying so inspirational. You didn’t go off the deep end and return to gambling like there was no tomorrow. I only have to get through tomorrow (23th) and then I’ll be travelling to the country. If I’m smart, I’ll use the time to clean my house and to pack a few clothes, so I can leave early on the 24th. We have been invited to Danny’s daughter’s for dinner on Christmas Eve and then will go to my daughter’s on Christmas Day. I will be driving home on the 26th as I don’t want to leave Pablo and Ferris for any longer than I have to. One day at a time, and moment by moment some days. Thanks for being my friend! Carole
