thank you.. this is day before my big new decision. Tomorrow i will admit all to my wife, its 3th time in last two years that i do this but i think its better to do then never to do this.. I feel it will be last time, i am sure about that actually, , maybe because she will left me with our kids ( or better to say ask me to left their home because i gambled all i had and home is their, not mine), or last time because i know and feel that this is last time i will be in this situation. One is clear, i will never make gambling again. I will delete all from my life that have something with gambling to do. I will delete all sources and internett things that can close me to gambling again, tro to not be in touch with people around me that have something wiyh gamblong or talk about that. Actually all this osnt necesserry, this is my decision. I will again change my life. This time i need to work much more to not think about financial and debts even i eill need to wotk at least 7-10 years to repay all of them…But i dont think about money anymore… I can live mostly without mpney. I tried this in last few mounths and found that i dont need money, or something small money, sof course after i pay all for debts for house, kids and family. For me its enough few dollars sometimes for few beers. I dont dream and think about mpney anymore. With this i am sure this time i will kill my gambling addiction. I am on therapy also and it hrlps a lott to talk with people that have similar history and same problems.
