Hi all,
Did not post yesterday as to be quite honest was Quite depressed although I did manage the 40 minute bus journey to the council tax offices, something I have put off for three months. What was depressing me was that my current state of affairs will just continue or get worse. I am used to being quite lavish at xmas and now I have nothing. I have, if things continue as they are, no hope of buying any Xmas presents with fifty quid to last till third December. It is my eldest sons 36th birthday on the 17th November. I cannot afford anything. Today, I did the filming on behalf of Labour Futures on the universal credit system. It ended with being asked if I was in front of mrs may what would I say to her. I said that it was clear that her party and what the tories represent is a complete lack of social conscience and no heart, but we already knew that. I said that thanwhem, not if. We get a change of government that I would want a public enquiry into all the people who have been sanctioned and committed suicide, each and every one of them. I also said the same for those with incurable cancers who have had their disability cut, who have been deemed fit to work and passed shortly after. I met one yesterday with incurable cancer who had their benefit slashed. This is the uk we Iive in today. It is ugliness in extreme. Well. After that I went to my GA meeting and met with my sponsor to go through all the emotional issues both before and after gambling. It was a long list and made me feel very sad whilst I was writing it. Spiritual issues next, again a long list. Well, I live to fight another day by the grace of God and I hope that things shift for me soon.
