Ive been busy these past few days, well i say busy but more in a sense that things have happened in my family. We had an incident in january where my dad had stashed some money away for himself and when he went to grab some of it, it had all gone. My dad is not a very nice person and i have never got on with him, infact he is a very violent man who at times i despise for what i had to endure as a child. Well he went crazy and the only person who knows where he hid his money is my mom. Ive known for a while shes gambled but no one else knows and my family brush it off whenever i mention it. Well it turns out my mom stole the money and used it for gambling (although anyone else in my family does not know). They believe it went on to pay debts which my mom does have alot of debt but i know the debt recently has been so she can gamble more (ive been there myself too which is how i know her behaviour is from gambling). Well yesterday she did it again. Stole £400 from my dad and told him it was to pay debts. I found she needed the money to pay bills but had spent the bill money then panicked. Now no one in the house is speaking to her including me but i have offered my help to try kick the gambling but she declines it. Ive always said you cant help someone who does not want it so what do i do? Im living with my own addiction and having to try help my mom. She knows about my problems but shes not interested. How has the money who has bailed me out several times over the 4 years of my gambling got to this point? The times ive been crying to her saying i want to end my life etc but i cant understand how she herself has got to the same stage ive been at yet she has only seen the bad sides of gambling. I will never get my savings back or my dad wont get his money, but i hope my life can learn from this thing and i wont look back
