It’s friday evening and this would be my favorite time to gamble so I’m having some pretty strong thoughts and urges. It would start innocent and small, “just for fun”. As soon as I would lose my first deposit, I would deposit more and start playing on bigger bets. That would lead to more deposits. I always had a problem with quitting a certain slot. I want to play another one, but I can’t quit the one I’m playing. Saturday mornings I would wake up feeling pretty bad about the amount of money I lost. 20 minutes later I would be depositing again to chase what I had lost the night before. Before I know it, my weekend would have been over, I would have lost tons of money, I would have hardly gotten outside and my head would be pounding. I am not going to do this to myself this weekend. I’m opting for a anti – anxiety pill and finding a movie to watch. Hopefully tomorrow I will be waking up fresh with 7 days free of gambling behind me.
