Went to sleep at 9am and awake again at 12 midday for telephone consult with my work coach. I explained how things were and he said that he hoped I did not find him harassing. I said no, that I have always found him helpful. There are some very nasty work coaches in these job centres but he is a nice gentle soul. I think he has to be careful as he doesn’t want a suicide on his conscience! Well, what about the weather today? It is really dark outside with a strange glow. The winds of change, washing away all the things in our lives that we no,longer need i.e. Gambling and bringing in the new. My middle son, Kai, has just got paid and paid me back the rest of the money he owed. Not much now but still a help. I am pleased and proud at how committed he has been. He made a mistake and took huge effort to pay it back, and he has, within two months. I would have liked to have app.ied this learning to my gambling. I wonder why if you look at me in my 30s and 40s, I would never have gambled seeing this as a mugs game. And yet, I end up losing everything to this addiction. What changed? Life and giving up is what, I think. Although the ads on TVs did not help and it all started innocently enough. Harmless fun becomes fun less harm is what my sponsor would say, I still haven’t started the helicobacter triple therapy. I have such a mistrust of western medicine and this comes from an ex nurse. I will start it today. Read geordie,s threads which are so very readable, even about tyres. I think I will invite him to come and say something on my thread. Well, going to have a nap now as not had enough sleep. Thanks again I did it and Vera. We have to be honest in our posts. Even I am sick of this depression, but it is there so I will post honestly.
