[Callmecrazy]

I’m having a hectic time at work but in a way I feel liberated and strong. Because I have lost so much to gambling I’m feeling a sense of freedom as if I have nothing more to lose. I already lost everything. I don’t care anymore. They give me these silly ultimatums at work, threaten me and I just don’t care. I stand my ground. I also don’t have the urge or need to punish myself for their behavior. I’m willling to fight until my last breath. Kill or be killed. Let it be.