Day 6 is here – it’s so long since I enjoyed any kind of freedom from gambling I can hardly believe day 6 is here.
When I say freedom I don’t just mean abstaining – I mean freedom from the constant urges. It’s like P describes – the switch has flicked .
In all honesty I’m not sure it because of anything I have done – however I am
Trying to keep that switch in the off position by not gambling at all-
When In the past I “stopped” gambling , it really meant I stopped online slots – I still went to bingo, bought lottery tickets and did anything that wasn’t online.
This time I have stopped all gambling
And right now I feel it’s Not worth taking a chance and sinking back into the nightmare of the last several years.
I am very mindful of people who would sabotage my recovery – even under the guise of helping me . I now stop and ask myself what their motive is . I have learned to be more assertive and call them
Out on their ****shit even if the negativity is in the guise of a “helpful ” question.
When
We are doing well we need people cheering in our corner , willing us on – not putting buts in our way.
I think the biggest change I have made is my attitude towards such
support – I can see now that having a negative person “supporting ” me was akin to looking in the mirror every day and saying to myself – “you will never stop. You don’t have it in you”.
