Dear sad68, thanks for your wonderful message, and congratulations on overcoming addiction! How long has it been since you last gambled? Did you experience any withdrawal syndromes and how did you overcome them?
Today is my 6th day of going cold turkey on gambling! I think about it at least 3 times a day, especially when I was making plans on how to repay my debts! I was thinking about it a minute before I started writing this journal, I thought, “I haven’t gambled in 6 days now, I have a strong feeling that I’m gonna get paid out if I played now, about time!”. I actually went to my favorite gambling site, and clicked on a new slot game and played the trial version until I got a free game. The urge wasn’t strong but the feeling that I will win was quite strong. I then looked at all the casino games and imagined myself playing it for real…. I actually felt sick and disgusted by the thought of it and closed the window immediately.
This is the first time in the history of my 8-year gambling life that I have put my foot down and walked out of temptation to gamble. I feel so now!
A CG told me that no one is slip free. However, I’d like to challenge that statement. I’m planning to reach 365 days of 100% slip free gambling free life and fight every single urge and evil thought that comes to my mind.
Although my situation now sucks SO BAD now and I’m living the consequences of gambling every minute of my life, but I have never felt so pumped and positive. Fingers crossed! I” be updating my journey frequently on how I combat my addiction and while piecing together my life that has fallen apart.
Thanks again for your wonderful message sad68!