Diary day 6
I can say that I am another day free from gambling and I have no urges or wants to ever go back to it. I want to be free from it for the rest of my life and I will.
I have a lot to make up for what I have done and I know that isn’t and won’t be easy to do. However it shouldn’t be easy either because of what has happened. I don’t expect anything to be a quick fix because it won’t. I will forever continue to try and put it right.
I spoke to my son yesterday and he gave me even more reasons to be positive and beat this. People are being so supportive and I can only continue to say thank you to you all and that I won’t let my wife and the kids down again.
I will protect my family from here on in and do what I should be doing. I will make sure I work extremely hard to give them my all and make things better. It isn’t going to be easy but I refuse to accept defeat with this. I want to prove that despite what I was doing my family did mean something to me. I was lost and I didn’t know what I was doing until it was too late.
I will continue to look forward and treat each day as if it’s my last. Nothing is impossible but it requires me to work hard and be that success story!! I have been a failed my family but with every breath I have left I will not fail again. I am the only one to blame and I am the only one that can make it better again.
I will be remembered as the man that made a difference again and my family will be proud of me again.