Half way towards my target. Feeling positive about life and really am feeling a lot more upbeat. My Mum had mentioned to me over the weekend that I seem happier and I’m taking an interest when we sit down and talk. Not just a blank occupied mind like before I stopped gambling.
Still struggling to come to terms with this debt I’m in although it’s managable and I am paying it off monthly… it just seems like I’m going to be here forever paying it off. But I got myself into the situation and I’ll get myself out. Without gambling!!
I’ve been promised a pay rise next month too which really could help. Not sure how much yet but anything is a bonus.
In regards to urges and wanting to gamble… I’ve been surprisingly okay. when I look at my debt and when I feel like I might be short of money.. I can’t lie I think I can make that quick fix of 5K or 10K. I know deep down it’s not an option but I definitely still get those urges. But I’m learning to deal with these urges when they come. It’s not as bad as what it used was! I think it’s been key not having access to any money just for the reason I can’t physically gamble with no money.
50 Days Gamble free… Can’t believe I’ve already got this far!! Although it’s a long road so I need to stay focused.
Bring on Day 51.. One day at a time