5 days in. I’ve started keeping a journal where I write bullet points. Anything that affected my day, how I physically felt that day, any meetings with counsellors and even the weather. Mostly, I’ve felt physically and emotionally tired. I’ve continued to be honest with myself, recognizing that I may never have this addiction “beat” as I know that if someone put some “free” credits in an online slot account, and I had access to it, I’d be in there. So I continue to give my phone to my husband and hope that eventually, this will not be a requirement for me in order to avoid the pitfalls. I’m trying to find the good things that happen in the day. Yesterday, one of my husband’s sisters gave me a ride to work (which I never thought would happen) and said “you’re worth fighting for”. I am and I will. Mostly, I’m trying to keep busy doing other things. Things like cleaning out desks and disposing of clutter. We shall see what Day 6 brings.
