today was interesting, i got more for my watch than was expecting yesterday £50 in total which is more than i needed and i actually felt a little nervous about this. Today i put more than i needed in the car, went to the pet shop for some treats (for the dog not me) and then went to Aldi ( the supermarket of conversation at the moment ) and bought 2 bags full of fresh produce and some extras like juice, bread and a big pack of fresh chicken for the dog and some other stuff for a grand total of £12.41 🙂 i find in Aldi’s case that cheaper isn’t poor quality as their produce has more taste to it unlike supermarkets that actually change the DNA of fresh produce to make it bigger and last longer as that’s what they think the customer wants and another interesting fact, if you have a calorie counting app on your phone, if you scan some of the stuff in aldi’s it actually comes up as Tesco. i actually work for one of the biggest chocolate and candy manufacturers and years ago we used to make a lot of the stuff for the supermarkets even value stuff, it was no different just in different packaging so don’t be deceived by low prices 😉
anyway with that all done and feeling accomplished and a few quid left in my pocket i thought “well a little bet won’t hurt and i can’t chase as i have no more money” (my gambling voice of reason) i have a lot of work to do to recover and i want with all my being to abstain from gambling until i start recovery so i nipped to Tesco and although i could have bought something i didn’t need i actually got some bits and put it in the food bank holder, it was actually Monicau’s post that got me thinking about that and i also bought heinz beans as i took on board her point about it being all frills stuff and some tesco noodles and biscuits, i actually did this from a selfish point of view to make sure i didnt have money for gambling but it got me thinking, a few days ago i was panicking as i had little food and petrol and no money for 2 weeks, last month i went without food for a few days and it was hell, i am lucky as i have the choice at the moment not to be in that situation but so many people are in that situation every day of their lives. by me not gambling in the future means i will be in a healthy position to help out with food donations which has got to be a lot more rewarding than gambling.
today i will not gamble
