46 days now and although it’s getting easier I dont want to get complacent as I sometimes get that urge and although they are less frequent and dont last long as before I know full well that one slip up and all those feelings will come rushing back stronger and harder. One thing I have noticed is that hardly anyone talks about football at work which makes me think I was instigating the conversations all the time. I also can’t believe that my first wage in January, I put some money into my savings and it’s still there, that has never happened before, I’ve also been given an unexpected bonus from work which I will put into my savings. I have made agreements with some companies I owed money to so that I can pay them back. I haven’t had money spare for over 20 years of my working life as I always eventually lose it. I know %100 that this has only been possible with someone here insisting that I exclude myself from the bookies, that has been crucial to my recovery and if I can recommend only 1 thing, that would be it. Dont make excuses like promising yourself you will set limits, it doesnt work!
