Hi,
Not been on here for a while. Don’t believe my last post was 22 it’s day 43 now. Feeling better about lots of stuff but my main big loss still plays on my mind and especially how much of a collosal waste of money it all was! I hope I can honestly say it was just a phase but I guess the fear of it not being is why I’m on here.
I’m currently addressing some self confidence issues that have come to light. They are not a direct result of gambling but the gambling didn’t really help. Basically I’m trying to look at things in a new more positive way and say “he’ll yeah I can do what they are doing, I can do it too and just as well”. Part of that mindset is “trying” for a new career. I skipped the uni part so may go down the military route. Self confidence is what has put me off before, the thought of being with large groups of other competing guys and proving myself. Anyway scree that and I’m going to give it a go. If I get through selections great and if not at least I can say I tried and I will be able to fall back on my already good job I have at least.
Overtime is going decent, I will have £200 at the end of the month I hope. Only another £1000 to go to make up what I lost in a few hours. #IDIOT! Anyways it will all add up and I can use it for what it was supposed to be for in 2017 if all stays well.
Sorry I don’t post on other diaries as much on here, I am always on GamCare so don’t get much chance with this site but I do like coming on for my diary posts. Cheers people