Yertserday was a much better day for me, emotionally. I did not break down or dwell on negative thinking about debts and past. I made a significant contribution to the conference and influenced it to adopt a certain proposal. It felt veey good. One of our delegates did not attend this conference and the head of delegation asked me to fill for him. So I will be making a presentation today..i am hoping to ace it..just to help give me more confidence and uplift my spirit. There was anorther dinner last nite, it was my intention to attend and network, but I found out the venue has a casino. So I just ate at my hotel and spend the rest of the night preparing my presentation. I could not handle not speaking to my wife, so i decided to try and call her..this time she answered…I have never said so many sorries inside 10 seconds..i did not anticipate she will pick up, so i did not prepare a proper speech..she did not make any conversation but I was glad to hear here voice. This months bills are beggining to come..but i will just deal it when I arrive back home..one thing I learned about gambling is that somehow a solution always comes. One day at a time..i will get there. Thanks for the support.
