[crhh]

Last night was a nightmare, I couldn’t stop thinking about how much money I’ve lost and how stupid I can be and why I’m always coming back to this. I know I need to let it go, but it just…won’t go. Keeps coming back to me, same thoughts, same feelings, depression and nightmares, even panic attacks.
I went to sleep around 22:00 just because I knew it will take sometime to actually sleep, but when I’ve checked my phone it was 3:30 and still no sleep. This morning I went to work by 7:00, I’m literally exhausted.
Tonight I hope I can sleep, not better, just…sleep!
(I won’t give up! “I won’t make any bet today, just…today”)