Dear all,
Feeling very low again today. I guess that’s normal and I have to accept it. Can’t shake the feeling of what I have done to myself, my family, my business etc. I have so much to try and fix it seems overwheling. I have to remember what they say in GA – that I can’t fix all my life’s problems in one day. I need to take this one day at a time. The urge to gamble was strong yesterday, but I accept it. My brain will want to gamble when it is low, as Gambling always gives me a high.
I want to get a high from being with my son and family, but I appear to be empty.
I will be going to GA again this eve, so that will make 3 in a week. The rush from reading the EasyWay has faded now, and i have to remember I am in recovery. I do not need to gamble, it will only make things worse. I understand now how an alcoholic feels. The ‘need’ for a drink or whatever. But that will not fix my problems.
So off to work we go, and hopefully I can lose myself in my work.
Wishing everyone a gamble free day, and a continued progression on their recovery.