Day 4.
I have been reading some of the other journals here. I guess we’re not alone. We share this…frightening dilemma; this part of us we have to restrain. Some of the posts I read could have been written by myself. What a frightening addiction. Truly heart-wrenching…but also posts of newfound faith and determination. I truly wish to be on the latter party one day.
I’m going to do this, come hell or high water.
Never again. I will have to fight the toughest battle of my life, against my self…my urges and unhealthy thought processes. But I see that others have succeeded, so I can do the same.
I’m not going to let gambling destruction into my world ever again. The thought of gambling currently repulses me…please stay with me…this combination of hope and fear.