[i-did-it]

Day 39.

Incredibly stressed about stuff today . Woke up way too early – have had too little sleep. Just want to win the lottery .

I am seeing an old pattern here – The idea that a big win will sort my life out.
I am also noticing after several years, that now that I am not spending time defending my thoughts or my exploration of those thoughts , I am starting to become aware of triggers and how my feelings contribute towards urges to gamble.

So today I want to skip work- but interestingly now that I have identified what caused the urge I no longer want to gamble.

Feeling stressed and anxious