Hey guys,
Still going strong. This is my day 36. I feel confident and strong but most of all grateful. Knowing where the gambling road ends for a lot of people keeps me motivated.
I just wanna say, it all comes down to will power. Yes, setting up barriers is vital of course to give you some time to reflect when the urge kicks in but if I really wanted to gamble like I used to I would easily find a way. There is always a way.
Did I have the urge to gamble? Hard to say, sure it did cross my mind at some point but I just felt too good and happy to want to spoil all my progress. In a sense not gambling is giving me a high and satisfaction that feels way better than gambling.
Guys I just want to say thanks for all the support. There are so many beautiful souls on this forun. So many kind words and so much support. It really makes me think you know, how people who been through some tough shit are the ones with the biggest hearts. Just have a look at your facebook feed and read the comments, so much hate and ridicule. So many unkind words and lack of empathy. This forum is the opposite. All I see here is love and it is a great reminder to myself that there are so many wonderful people out there.
None of you deserve all the shit that happened to you. Sometumes it just comes down to bad luck, life itself is a big gamble. We cant control the past but we have a saying about our future. Our pasts does not define us.
I’m gonna keep going and maybe, just maybe then I can inspire at least one person to do the same and that’s more than enough for me.