Another day gambling free and it feels great! I actually couldn’t have even if I wanted to as my little boy was sick today and attached to me like glue, but I didn’t think about it. I’m starting to come to the realisation that I gamble to switch off and escape. My life is great, there is no need to escape, but my time is never about me. There is always 100 things running through my head that of things that need to be done, always at least one child attached to me when I am home or out with them… I can’t even poop on my own atm. When I play there is no one talking to me, nothing going through my head but the game.
Now that I’m starting to realise that it’s going to be a lot easier to stay away and deal with that. I’ve downloaded a new game on my phone, building this village which I’m really enjoying. I can escape into that and switch off. I haven’t brought supplies to advance (and let’s face it even if I went mental I couldn’t do even 1/10 of the damage I do on a machine) but I don’t want to either. I take myself out the back and just play and escape, it’s great!
Tomorrow there will be opportunity to play, I am working so I have before, lunch and after. I’m going to organise to meet my mum for lunch, leave the house so that I’m late arriving if I go straight there and put on my exercise gear and walk home maybe even leave my wallet at work.
I’m really happy I’m actually starting to progress, the next 3 days will be filled with opportunities and if I can use them for good i can prove to myself and my hubby I can do this !