So I am having urges, but I understand them now. My urge is because I just checked my bank account and saw the money I ‘won’ in the account. I put it in my savings. But now, the gambler addicted part of my brain truly believes you can make money this way. I know this not to be true. Next time I could lose it. I think it will take a long time for this belief to disappear. They say the worst thing that can happen to a gambler is they win as that reinforces the false belief. Twice now I was massively down and twice now I have pull fit back from the brink. I believe that 3rd time will be unlucky. I remember the state I was in – I was frantic. I threw up when I stopped.
I was to stay gamble free, earn my money, not try to win it. No easy way of life.
I wish everyone a gamble free day, I will focus on my tasks and achieve more success in my new life as a non-gambler.
Peace and love