The dust has just about settled on my latest spiral of self destruction. It’s the third day since I last gambled. I’ve paid my debts to the safe at work and my weeks wages have gone straight into my savings. Daft thing is, before I started, I’d hit my goal of reaching 10k savings (half of what I lost). I’d just finally reached it and the bottom fell out. My bottom fell out too. I’m currently on £8,500 and awaiting my next weekly wage which should be about £470. Basically these two recent weeks wages while the boss has been away were all for nothing. I’ve just worked for free. Cheers Adam. I saw my boss today and told him what I’d done. He seemed pretty surprised and dissappointed.
I think I’ve been panicking a bit because of my housing situation. I’m currently living in my parents house. They are living in a bungalow and had planned to eventually sell the house when I get a mortgage. Well things have changed. They can’t settle in the bungalow and it’s currently on the market. As soon as it sells they’re moving back into the house and I’ll be given the nudge. I’m still miles away from the £20k they expect me to have in my savings. I’m not sure how mortgages work, but I’m fairly sure they check your financial history. Does this mean a shady gambling past will be exposed? Will it effect me getting on? I don’t know. But I’m worried. Even more so since this latest jaunt has knocked me back a month or two in saving.
On the face of it though, I’m continuing as normal. I’ve been working hard and trying to keep my itchy fingers busy. Technically, I’ve been cleaning. A lot. I’ve also put a £500 purchase on my credit card. I’ve paid for me and the lady, her son and his girlfriend to go to Alton Towers for a couple of days in October for her birthday. Something else I need to save up for, but I don’t mind that. She shouldn’t have to suffer for my inability to stop chucking money at a chunky electronic thief.
Anyway, that’s enough from me. It’s only day 3 so I don’t wanna get too excited. I need to get past a week and I’ll start to feel a bit better I think… Maybe.
