Day 26
Better? Of course. Fixed and everything is nice and makes sense…not by a long shot. Do I feel more financially confident? Totally. 100%? Nope. I have an compulsion to gamble it all away. But only when I do. I’m not a robot. I’m not programmmed by a programmer. Check that… I do have a programmer…myself.
How do I program myself differently than I have in the past. Not sure. But by not gambling I may find out what input I’ve imputed into myself, allowing the clarity to see how I’ve been faulty in my thinking.
Hopefully .
It is what it is, but without me working on myself, nothing will change. I want change. Desperately.
“Don’t go silently into that good night”. But with a caviet, for myself.. also don’t go wildly. Don’t follow my in inclinations, make them follow.