Ok so a little bit time passed still not enough. I told my GF about my past…. She didn’t comment she doesn’t know how much I’ve lost I didn’t tell her about recent ones I’ve told her that I’ve finished with this for good. Now seems like everyone know.
I’ve had a major argument with my GF not about gambling, just life argument…. I was thinking that this is one I can be fragile and back to gambling, however I feel no. Even if someone pay me to gamble I wouldn’t do it. So if there is problems I don’t think i run into gambling.
To follow up, above I think i run into gambling when I get cocky, too confident about my life, it’s also like sadomasochistic treat. Climb on the mountain then jump without parachute, smash my face on the rock and climb again. The thing with life mountain it’s that it hasn’t got limit it’s as infinity high and there is no top of it. However there is bottom of this mountain it’s when we loosing everything.
So basically you start with hell, everything is harder on the begin higher you reach it becomes easier, more colorful, you look back you see how much distance you made already. You proud, you get overconfident you think you reach the sky limit, but not take more steps to see what’s above sky. You stop thinking about your achievement, you gamble everything, fall down and all again…..
The quote for today ” Never look down, look above the sky”