Day 17 of being gambling free and it feels good.
Thank you both to the two people that replied above. I truly appreciate the support.
As sad as it is to say, im the accountant in the family and I do have access to it. I’ve been telling myself I just want to win $50,000 back winning 5 games at $10,000 a play. I would quit then pay off my debt and take the $50,000 loss as a lesson learned (I’m down $100,000 altogether wih $50,000 of that owed to my credit cards/personal loan).
Am I foolish to do that? I’ve been trying my best to convince myself I can win $50,000 back and pay off my debt and start over and quit gambling for the rest of my life. At most I would bet is the $10,000 I’ve been trying to reserve. I’ve never been in debt my entire life and it’s killing me I owe this debt. I feel it would expedite my recovery by 2 years. I know if I lose, it would set me back another 6 months but that’s the risk I’m leaning on.
It’s been 17 days since I’ve last gambled and I’ve been feeling good. I just want to pay off my debt quickly 🙁