So I am on day 156 now. I had totally forgotten about you lovely people. Of course I think about you and think i must write something, but then I forget when I have the time.
My last post was actually almost a month ago. Wow. Doesn’t time fly.
Since then I have shot a produced a music video and slowly been getting on top of the chaos. Have been seeing lots of my son Valentin, and have worked out and invested in kit I need to live in my car. That’s write. Not just sleeping in my car but living in it. It’s the only way i can afford to stay in London AND pay the money my ex wants to hep her look after Valentin.
I am installing a leisure battery, split charging system, I’ve taken out 2 back seats, got self inflating mattresses, 3 camping stoves, fridge. I LOVE it. I have my spots where I stay where I can get free wifi to check emails.
I have almost no thoughts of gambling as I know that it would be pointless. I still do GA 3 or 4 times a week wherever I am and have not missed a week since getting out of GMA. I also do NA as well as you know and ust got my 60 days since joining NA. I am doing my steps, looking at my defects, doing my gratitude list. Work front is amazing. Our clients want a new series of films which, if I play my cards right with HMRC, totally saves the business. I am starting with a rented desk in a hot desking office and then we’ll get a short term office. Some amazing film opportunities including a series of 5 min films I am developing about gambling with another well known ex gambler who wrote a book. That is going well.
The most important thing is I am taking my time. It is just over 100 days since I left GMA earlier than I thought but I am so proud at how I took that. I didn’t relapse, I didn’t start gambling again. I have embraced recovery and will continue on this path, one day at a time, for the rest of my life.
SO good to see Charlster is out. Thanks for emailing me fella and bringing me back. Awesome what you wrote about your daughter. It’s funny how stuff goes. I had to leave so you could get the care you needed and that makes me happy. I was not meant to be there. I was meant to be out here. My treatment with National Problem Gambling Clinic starts soon so I will get the treatment I need.
I love you all, and I will see some of you in the groups next week.
have a great weekend
Mav