Thank you for the encouragement maverick!! I really am slacking on logging in here and posting. I have been working from home since March and feel somewhat closed in. My mood fluctuates from one week to the next.. I am grateful that I have employment but also anxious for life to go back to some kind of normal. With all the restrictions due to COVID increases it is going to be a long winter so counselling remains importan.
i have stayed gamble free and for the most part have no desire to gamble. I have noticed many friends/family on Facebook sending me invites to their private pages where they have bingos for money. I am staying away from those pages as I know how quickly that could turn into a gateway to online slots or going to the casino. I can’t go back to gambling – it has already stolen way too much from me. I feel like my husband is starting to trust me again- when he talks about how when I was gambling it was the worst time in his life I am able to feel guilt and remorse for the effect my choices have had on others instead of getting defensive- this isn’t something I have really been able to do when I was actively gambling as gambling made me a very selfish person.