Sorry i havent posted in a few days but its been chaos. Ive been feeling okay, no urges to gamble. But its been the worst 3 days of my life. I was in work on saturday when i got the phonecall off one of my sisters telling me that loads of bills have been found unpaided and amounting into the thousands. One of the letters said we were going to lose the house on 26th april if we did not pay £1500. Of course my dad finds these and hits the roof. More and more bills are found amounting to around £5000. Of course this has been gambled by my mom and she then admits it to my family. I have known about my moms gambling but she sworn me to secrecy or she would kill herself. She then proceeds to overdose on pills and then i leave work to get back. By then my sister had came to pick my mom up to stay away for a few days. Turns out my mom has been also borrowing money from sisters, brother, and my nan with the excuse of i had been stealing her money and leaving her with nothing to pay the bills (a complete lie as i have not committed for 2 years) and she was then gambling as much as possible. My family had not told me what my mom had said about me and when i found out i broke down wondering how my mom could say these things about me. I have tried to help her several times, like put blocks on her phone but shes always refused and how can you help someone who does not want it. The bills have been paid from my dads savings and the house is okay. My mom is now not living with us and staying at my sisters. She is too ashamed to come home but i do forgive her. In a very strange way i believe this will help me on my own journey of no gambling as i have seen both perspectives, being both the victim and the one who has committed. I have now just eaten the first thing in 46 hours as i have felt really sick from all this (i usually eat huge amounts of food!). So yeah, the worst 3 days of myself and i feel my mom has hit rock bottom. Lets hope she can now pick herself up and start again and i will be there to help her every step of the way.
Thanks for reading
