Checking in on the journal. I visit the site every other day and read up on select journals, but rarely can I get myself to conjure something worthwhile to say. I think it’s because I’m very much in my own head at the moment. I’m very much in a conflict of beliefs and thoughts, and I find it very hard to organize and make sense of the clustering thoughts. Also, lately I’ve been very angry about myself for caring so much about what other people think of me, and I’m realizing that a lot of my stress and anxiety is something I have put on myself because many of the things I do and have done is mostly things I think my friends, family, and society expect of me, rather than something I truly want to do. Truth be told, I don’t even know what I want to do, so what would I be doing if not trying to live up to my self-imagined expectations from friends and family… Ahhh whatever, I lost my train of thought. I’m just really frustrated and kind of depressed at the moment.
