Day 10 started….
Yesterday I weight myself I’ve noticed I’ve lost 5 kg in last two months, which is really bad – 10 kg less than 7 years ago when I was in the best shape, when I’ve travelled around the world working in creative industry on the huge events. It was a slap on my face now I’m thinking if I continue gambling I would be thin as stick…. I think with gambling habit there is needs to change other bad habits. I will write more about this at some point.
I feel a lot better… I’ve been working more, got more energy to live. I’m reading some stuff here – thinking OMG, why people do this to themselves – Yet I did it not even two weeks before and I can read my thinks to see the progress….
I now focusing on more positive thinks, I try to meet friends, plan my future and think about happiness without money….. I start to understand the addiction and I’m thinking – Even I’ve got 100k when I’m in bad state I still would gamble it’s because I’ve got nothing to do, i want to kill my time, but last couple days I’ve started to think about things more positive. I feel like I’m getting back my artistic soul, which I’ve lost sometimes ago….. I just feel so much energy inside me…. I don’t want to be over excited but I’m going to stay on track….