Today I will not gamble, unfortunately I cannot say that about yesterday but I feel so ashamed that I’m taking it as a positive sign.
It was the most stupid thing ever great again all day yesterday on way home I had to stop at the shop for bread and milk and as in many towns here bookies is right next door I had 4 pounds odd change from the shop and I thought what’s the harm and put this into the fobt fast forward another lost hour where I turned the 4 into 117 and as any cg I convinced myself I would gamble down to 100 then walk away and take this as my last time and I would walk out a winner in my head.
As you can guess 100 then became 80 then 60 and eventually nothing.
The only saving grace was I am not carrying bank cards at the moment so I only really lost 4 pound.
I have the old familiar sick feeling today and I realise I cannot go near a bookies. Ever!!
Thanks for your comments and I will report day 1 has been gamble free tomorrow