[MurrS7]

I’ve just gambled tonight after drinking excessive amount of booze. I had the Urge. I’ve just lost 4000$ in 1 hour. I don’t know how to feel. I feel sad, alone, depressed, like I’m in a nightmare. I don’t know what to say. I don’t know what todo I don’t know who to tell. I am pretty much just wanting to die almost. Basically . I can’t believe this. I am so ashamed . I just want to Cry . Quit my job. What a pethetjc low life I am