Just return from a meeting, I was like these people in the past
I knew I have a gambling problem like everyone there
But I have belittled and cannot imagine the destructive power of this problem
I was brought up with the mindset… not to quit or give up easily
I feel that the inconvenient from the gambling problem then…was a temporary one
When things improve, I will pick myself up from where I fall down
I shall return one day …….to gambling and beat the system
Gambling offer me the fastest way to double or nothing for my money.
I feel that I have learn from my lesson
I feel that I am able to make sure the same disaster will not happen again
I feel that I am able to control the gambling if I am more careful the next time
When I return to gambling, I will try a different approach from the last one
I still believe that there is a way to beat the system, I have not surrender completely
I was an ignorant, arrogant stubborn fool!!!
Still want to go back to the same place, do the same thing expecting a different result
My belief system have a big problem!
I don’t believe Gambling is more powerful and better than me
I don’t believe it can control me, and beat me every single time forever
I can still remember all my past big winning
But I cannot remember every painful experiences
These people I meet now are stubborn, arrogant and ignorant
I must take care of myself, I must not care too much about what these people think about me
I must leave these people, it is better to be unpopular than to be sorry.
They have proven time and again they will disappoint and fail me in the end, they are not ready yet
They are responsible for their own recovery, I am responsible for my own recovery
I can turn to GOD and not them, GOD is always there
I will not be alone. I only need to pray and talk to GOD.
I am not a perfect person, I have weakness
Enough is enough!
It is time to live life without all the gambling, alcohol…….
The result is a rewarding one!