well done mate, ur doing very well.
Im sure its difficult for your wife to understand all this so make sure u talk to her .I don’t know if I mentioned this already, but i was a person who never opened up about my feelings and bottled it all up, that was not good for me despite at the time i thought it was better for everyone if i kept these things to myself.
I changed and im very open about my feelings, i dont tell lies anymore( not even white lies), honesty really is the best policy.
My girlfriend was struggling and i gave her the red handbook from GA. She gained a great understanding from reading this booklet and i would advise u to do the same.
Ur doing very well, at the minute my urges are slowly beginning to crawl back but i am stronger than previous times and I wont give in.
Cheltenham is starting in a few weeks and that will be my toughest test to date but my mentality is ” Just for today” 🙂
Take care
Thomas