I went to my first counselling session Wednesday. I was very skeptical. It went well anyway. I got a little emotional and realised a few things. The point is it made things bearable to face. Today I have £3 in my purse. I managed to make the cold hard cash in my purse do what it needed to do and I’m slowly learning the value of money. The shame I feel is still there and I can’t help but think about what financial position I would be in had I not gambled. I know I would be doing a lot more over the Easter holz that’s for sure. But at least I’m alive I guess… I think shame may be my biggest hurdle to overcome. I hope my partner can look at me the same way he used to soon. He is kind to me, helpful and supportive. But there’s still a different look about him.
