I hear you, when you talk about wanting to be in control. That’s an illusion. The reality of compulsive gambling is…. I am powerless over gambling. Gazing at market prices, horse racing, slot machine images, even mentally, is out of bounds for a CG. Given time, opportunity and access our thoughts become words, our words, deeds, our deeds habits and on it goes until our lives are once more unmanageable. “Recovery” is grounded in a changed mindset.Awareness of what our poison will do if we indulge. Dwelling on what we saw as “fun” in the past leads to destruction and self deception. Self destruction becomes a way of life and we eventually believe this is all we deserve.
Change your thoughts and your actions will follow.
Interesting thread!