Hi John I have to echo charles’ sentiments. Monetary loss is only a small part of the overall damage caused by gambling. No amount lost is impossible to recover from unless you literally committed a crime that will have you in jail for many years.
I get the sense that you are not confident that you can recover from your financial losses. The key is patience. Stay GF for a year and review and reflect. Besides saving money use this opportunity to rebuild and develop all other aspects of your life. When you look back and go, wow, not gambling has really improved my quality of life, helped you develop X amount of skills/knowledge…then you can truly realize that you are recovering. The financial aspects will naturally look after themselves.