Hi Sj, please accept my condolences on the loss of your brother.
At a time like this it is more important than ever that you use some form of support. Did you read Harry’s post about a free blocker? If you are going to use this site less at the moment then what other support are you going to use? mayve aGA meeting, that doesn’t require internet access.
Again my condolences. Now is a time when it’s important to use all the support you have available to you.