Hi and welcome to this forum you are very courageous for admitting you are a gambler and for coming on here to find support.
My heart goes out to you, I have been in your shoes so many times, feeling empty and caring only about gambling.
No one is a lost cause, no matter what your family thinks. My family also shunned me, told me how much of a loser I am and how weak I am. How I chose to allow this to cripple me and I was not to be trusted. It is funny how people forget who we are the moment we do something they disapprove of. And I don’t blame them I hated myself too but it isn’t easy for people to think you can just snap your fingers and you will suddenly JUST STOP!
The VERY first step is to want to stop or at least want to want to stop. At the moment I moved interstate and I don’t live close to the casino or any other places that gives me easy access to gamble. Of course I still need to be safe but it is easier to beat this thing when it is out of sight and out of mind. What I am saying to you is that you probably need to remove yourself from working in the casino. You are literally facing temptation everyday and not allowing yourself much grace to even have a shot at this.
You should reach out and check if their are is a local community group that helps gamblers. And make it harder for yourself to access money keep your bankcard at home and only take the cash you need for the day to work. That way if you are tempted you have the whole car ride to remind yourself that you can beat this. Every time you walk back in that place you are allowing yourself to die a little bit more inside.
God can give you the strength and help you but you need to want the help. It is time to rise, you are a powerful woman, who is capable of making amazing choices. You are only 42 so young and SO MUCH for to live for and do.
I believe in you, I stand with you and I will support you.