Not sure how to restart this journal…
It’s been a long time.
I still need support, I haven’t gambled since Sept.2017, but the old thoughts still come. I really screwed up back in Sept. I hadn’t gambled since the previous Jan. At that time and boy did I make up for lost time. I never did tell my husband how much I lost.
So it’s been 5 months since I gambled and I gambled 3 times last year (2017).
I know many that might say this is ok, but if they were in my brain during those 3 times…. The frenzy, crazy person, was definitely NOT normal. I think someone called me a dry gambler? Like a dry alcoholic? Not really addressing the issues just forcing sobriety until you have a humongous relapse.
So, currently I’m ok, no immediate threats, but the monster in me lurks.
I-did-it, I didn’t see your message until today. I think of you often, especially when I wear my faded black clothes!!!
I haven’t read anyone’s thread yet so I have no idea who is new or still here, but I will try to stick around a little while this time. I’ve missed the friendships.