Chased my weekend loss for 2 days now.
Today was my last loss an hour ago.
Down -10k from Saturday
Not mine, the banks.
Officially the worst financial state I have been in my whole life
-10.5k line of credit maxed
-12k visa
-2500$ over draft chequing
No money to pay minimum payments
If I save my pay cheque this week from work I can
Pay the minimum.
Won’t have rent money though
Forced myself to move back in with my parents at age 29
No drive, no motivation to work, workout, no appetite
I was 68 days gamble free, life was looking good , well
As good as it could have been without gambling.
Now, tomorrow will be my day 1.
I told security once again I am banned, why do you keep
Letting me in. For the 5th time banning, they re took
My picture again, said it hasn’t been updated since 2014.
I was mad, becuase last time security said they updated ur
Pic.
Almost seems like they wanted me to lose my life savings
Well? I don’t know really what to say .
Lost for words as I never though it could get this bad.
29, -25k in debt. Empty, sad, and distressed.
At least I am alive, although I don’t know if I want to be.
Sometimes, these thoughts cross my mind when it
Got this bad.
Thanks for all your support guys.
I truly appreciate all of it; and I’m sorry
That this addiction beat me, for the 500th time.
Maybe, just maybe, one day I can look back and
Live a gamble free life. I pray one day, that is in the picture