Charlster, I am telling everyone about my gambling addiction and the fact that I am going into rehab, from my accountants to HMRC to everyone. I realise the only way for me to rid myself of this is to be open to everyone. I need everyone’s support. inclduing HMRC, so they need to know I am going into rehab as I am trying to keep the company going.
I know how you are feeling, truly I do. At the moment I am struggling to work out where I stand, where the copmany stands, making my wife redundant. I have simply left everything to the last minute. I could have avoided all of this by stopping gambling last year and focusing on the business and building it up, taking pride in it – instead the gambling took over, leading to depression, leading to more gambling and so on.
I am never ever gambling again, it has brought me nothing but misery. I have probably stopped too late to save the business, we’ll see, but one way or the other I have to get thorugh this. Time marches on, we have to deal with the shit we have created. But it is hard – if someone had been able to show me this future I know I would not have gambled. But strangely I did see it – I saw it in the faces and stories of other people from GA. But I thought I was different, I could handle it. I’ve learned now what a powerful addiction this is, how it takes over your mind and soul. And it does – it stopped me thinking straight on so many things – and now I cannot think straight at all.
I know now I will never be cured. I have pushed it too far. Maybe if I had stopped last year and stay stopped – but I would probably always have fallen into gambling again. As i would never had looked at the root cause of the gambling – unhappiness. And also I am probably the type of person that can’t stop until I hit rock bottom. BUt I have hit so many rock bottoms.
You can do it Charlster. This is our make or break moments. The moment we turn our lives around.
You have my love and support mate. I do hope one day we get the chance to meet once we have gamble free time behind us and more importantly a good future without gambling ahead of us.
take care.