Charles, I often find myself re-reading your posts as you come across as so mature and in control. You are doing so well, and I feel like I am doing so badly. I am panicking at everything. My wife threatened to go to COlombia next week and it destroyed me. I feel so helpless. I am an adult of 42 years old who cannot live on his own, yet I am the architect of my own misery. I simply do not know what to do.
Keep posting, you are a hero. Knowing you are doing it keeps me strong. Had the most insane urges today to gamble not to win, but to lose. The self destructive part of me really took over and said that if MOnica goes, what do I have to live for? How can I cope. It’s so stupid, but my feelings are all over the place.
Stay strong, you are in a great place and you have all my support. As I said, I love reading about your small victories.