Thanks so much Charles that is great! I also think it is healthy to limit my access to money, my partner is just transferring what I need and when I need it. We are still ironing things out, as it is important for him to see I am working hard and serious about paying my dues and at the same time I don’t want to not be able to go out and have fun and continue to be a victim because of my decisions, cause it is still like gambling wins.
nBaby steps as you said, each day as it comes and I am still clean.
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nToday was the first day I thought about gambling, it surprised me how it just hit me, I had today off from work and thought about where I could go to gamble. Strange because I don’t even want to gamble, or try and win some money, just habit of having some free time. I haven’t told my partner yet but I will tonight, I didn’t give in, they have just been fleeting thoughts.
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nOn Monday I had a session with a psychologist who is helping me discover the causes of why I gamble, or more what thinking led to me wanting to escape or gain control of my life through gambling etc, I am hopeful that this will be really healthy for me and really help me tackle the urges.
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nIn two months time it will be another new year and I want that to be MY YEAR! So much can change in your life just from being gamble free for months and I am looking forward to seeing what opportunities that brings my way.
