The past week has been very confusing…my CG has been home alot off and on…still jittery the first few days… and then he said Saturday he recognized whats causing his jitters/triggers to want to gamble..and was able to put himself out of the situation and let the want to pass…He is seeing a counselor and i think that is helping him to weed through his thoughts and feelings and im very glad because he seems to be calmer…recognizing things he can do to divert his thoughts/wants..this is also us starting fresh from months of hurt and confustion…yesterday he came home and stated he was ready to come home and asked if i would be willing to learn about what he is going through…join his groups on open family night if i like and be open to help supporting him…of course i do..but i told him i cant do it for him he has to do the leg work but i will be there to support him, talk to him, listen to him, etc.. BUT there have been changes within myself…there are things in my life that are new and i will not allow myself to be consumed by him and him alone again…suffering from Codependency its important i have my own time and hobbies and interests as well…Church twice a week is my time with God and im excited my children are following suit and enjoying it too..and the wed he is off he has been showing up to services too..I’ve also been taking part in biweekly bible studies and im enjoying being around other wives/mothers during these studies..
