Dear diary
What was it like in the past?
I force myself to stop gambling but my thought and feeling about some gambling beliefs remain unchanged. I don’t think there is anything wrong with it.
I change my action but my belief system remain unchanged, naturally my thought and feeling is still the same.
What happen?
I stop gambling many times but I keep falling into the same hole.
What is it like now?
I really think and feel that my old belief system is wrong now.
When someone has a change of heart, they change their opinion or the way they feel about something, a decision that what they thought earlier is not true or right now.
How long did it take me?
It took me more than 10 years to change my belief in gambling and recovery. I was too stubborn and slow, I could not change on my own free will. Only Higher Power could change me!