Strange, how we hanker after change , Kathryn and when it hits us unexpectedly we sometimes find it difficult to handle.
There are lots of clichés being bandied around “if nothing changes, nothing changes”, “everything changes” ,”change of Life”, “accept the things I cannot change” , “climate change”etc, etc. I notice as life moves on, many people become restless. “Change” for the sake of change seems to be the solution to our present dilemmas, the name of the game so to speak. “Move on”, “Let go, let God”, “Forget the past” are expressions we hear in counselling. religious sessions and support groups. Acceptance and gratitude are mentioned but in reality, chasing “change” has become more popular than actually stopping and looking at where we are and what we have NOW………. The reason I’m rattling on Kathryn, is I have noticed in myself that this restlessness for change set in when I was around your age (the good old menopause can be cruel to women) and that restlessness led me to gambling. Searching for something I felt I didn’t have. A discontentedness. I sense that “yearning for something else” building up in your recent posts. (Not judging now, just observing, before anyone jumps down my throat). I’ve been through these “phases” K. I learned in fact that sometimes things DON’T change. Or if they do, it’s not always the type of change we anticipated or longed for. Everything happens for a reason. Maybe it’s no co incidence that your husband’s sudden ability to text an apology coincides with losing his job? Maybe, he is growing up? Maybe you are seeing him in a different light? Maybe your post is a pointer for me , a clue as to how I should act towards people in my life? There is the type of change that happens without force or human input. Often, circumstances are outside our control. A sort of “Moving on”happens that we cannot halt. An Eternal Orchestra playing the Life Symphony, note by note without missing a beat . Without holding up the tune for whims and flaws of individual musicians. Like the ebb and flow of the waves as we watch at the sea shore or the rolling river continuing to flow when smaller streams join it. That’s what Real Life is like, Kathryn. Despite our input it can’t be forced. It just happens. Maybe, to ensure stability in our lives, we can pray for the Wisdom to focus on the things that don’t change.
“God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference” has profound meaning.
One thing I have noticed is when I change, everyone changes!
Hope himself lands a new job soon.
